I’m sorry guys, I know this isn’t the kind of place to talk about his
kind of thing but I had no where else to go. I have no one to talk to
and I need to get this out.
In the last year I’ve been going through hell. I fell in love with my
friends girlfriend. Actually it was his fiance. They were going through
a lot of troubles at the time. In fact he was being a complete asshole.
I began to hate him for what he was doing to her. She came to me often
and she started telling me that she was falling for me. She began
treating me in a way I have never experienced before. I couldn’t help my
feelings. But guess what? They’re still together. They’ve been together
the whole time despite all the heinous shit he’s thrown her way she’s
still with him. Want to know something else? She has a child. A
wonderful beautiful child. I began picturing myself as his father. I
want so much to parent him. But I’ll never get that chance.
It’s been a long time. I almost lost all my friends in the process. Now
I have to pretend like I don’t feel anything if I want to be around her.
She doesn’t treat me the same way anymore. In fact, she doesn’t even
treat me like a friend. She’s become indifferent. What can I do about
that? They’re going to get married and move away. I’ll never see her or
the child again.
Everytime I see my friends it’s uncomfortable. I watch her be tender
with him and it puts me through hell. They make a sexual inuendo and it
tears me up inside. Tonight they actually exlicitly said that they’re
going to do it tonight. DID I NEED TO KNOW THAT?! They’re pobably doing
it right now. I can’t stand to be in this situation.
Was she using me? Why do they behave as if they want to hurt me? The
only thing I can do is not have friends anymore. I can’t even talk to
anyone about this. Who would I? Not my friends.
I don’t know how to get out of this. I want to die.
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I usually dont like to get into these kind of discussions, but if I were
you I’d just stop seeing them. Dont be around them if it hurts that
much. Move on. It’s probably better for you if they move away. You
shouldn’t worry about finding love though. It may seem like there is no
one else, but there’s always someone else. Try a different crowd,
believe me when I say that it works.
ps: why cant you talk to your friends about this?
I wondered where the openal zen master went ;)
my question is, why do you still like her if she has no feelings for
you? Just dump her - she’s not worth your time.
anyways, I feel sorry for you and i understand your feelings. From the
way you said it, it looks like this is the first that you get involved
in a relationship. so, you didn’t have the experience in dealing with
such things, and avoiding/detecting it. now, i’m sure you have learned
something and how to deal with similar situations in the future.
My advice is to forget about it and look forward. everybody makes
mistakes. but i understand how such a huge thing is disasterous
just chill, relax and try to forget about it.
You can’t help your feelings for her - I’m guessing your friends all
know about them too. Just try your best to stay away. Find new bars (as
bladder said), and try and keep your old friends - they’re more valuable
than you think. It’ll just take time to heal.
Thanks. Sorry for spilling it all out here. It’s not exactly the kind of
place for this sort of discussion.
I did tell her that I’m not going to be around anymore. I don’t know how
she feels. She didn’t say anything. Her bf got me on msn and was
insulting. Don’t know why. He is a twit so I figured he just completely
It still hurts. She was a really good friend even if I couldn’t be with
her. I never thought having a female friend would be such a fulfilling
relationship. What I miss most is the child. I wanted to be his father.
I’ll probably never see him again.
So I’ve lost a group of friends. There’s an even worse part to the story
now. My only other friend tried to commit suicide the other day. He’s in
bad shape. I need to be there for him and not dump all my problems on
him. Seems that I’m always the shoulder and never vice versa.
As for the whole “OpenAL zen master”, this is one reason I haven’t been
around. There’s the full story on my webpage FRAG THE
PLANET which I’ve been spending
a lot of time on this month completely re-working. I’ve editted the
tutorials for typos and gramar etc, and I’ve managed to write a new on
on object factories. I was going to contact the devmaster admins to post
it, I was just waiting to get my site in shape first. But I am back.
Hopefully for good.
Don’t worry - this forum is getting well worn with personal problems,
and broad terms, we’re kinda like the Samaratons.
Help your other friend. Helping’s good for the soul, though have other
social outlets & friendly input - you don’t want to be consumed by